Dumping

So, it is 2:30 in the morning and I am backing up my computer to erase everything on it and start over. It has been running a bit weird lately and so, I think a fresh install will do it some wonders.

While I was doing this, I got to thinking of my life. I realized how much control some stuff that I was in had of my life. Like, I depended on other people to tell me if I am doing ok, or if I am a huge screw up. While it is not their fault. it became more of an issue.

See, I am not a very private person. I have no problems telling you about my life, my entire life. While, some like it, most do not. I am realizing that I was using certain things as a crutch in my life. While friends are great to build you up, some are quick to tear you down. And it became a roller coaster ride. Some days it was up, and some days is was down.

Instead of turning to God for my problems and opening up my bible to see the answers, I was going to places such as Facebook or Twitter.  While advice is good, if it is not met with biblical principal, it is not always “good”.

So, I had to dump. Dumping the things that got in the way of me and my God and me and my family. I started to view my life as some horrid life because we do things a bit different then the norm.  I started to have a more negative view on my children and my husband. Because they did not meet the expectations of what I had in my mind for them. Same with me. I did not meet the expectations of what I had of me. I stayed in my room so I can be involved with online stuff. And while the folks are great, I got too involved online that I did in my home. Again. That is my fault. I am not dumping friends, but I did dump a lot of other things.  So, I dumped.

I turn my chat off on FB now. I still answer messages as they come in, I can choose more to look at it later or then and there. I get a notification on my phone. I spend more time on FB through my phone now. Which is a lot less than I did even a week ago. While I cleaned my home, my home is far from where it needs to be.

I am feeling more confident in what I am doing. I am not looking for approval. If I ask an opinion on FB, it is just that, an opinion.

I am dumping soda, again. It is just so stink’n addictive. So, instead of even having it when we eat out, I am either going to do water or sweet tea. Soda, is just too addictive for me. I start to drink a soda, then I start to eat foods I don’t want to eat. I just do not seem to have that button in my life that I can hit when I have had enough.

I am dumping my sedentary lifestyle. We have been taking more walks as a family.

At least when it is not cold out.

But as a family, we have been walking more. I have some video’s to use when the weather is not hot. I also will have a vehicle here so I can hope over to the church in the center of town and use their workout room and take part in their free classes to get fit.  I want to dump this current version of me. I want a new and improved and healthy me. My kids deserve that, my husband does. And by golly, so do I.

I will also be going back on my BP meds and my Metformin for the PCOS. As of last year, I did not have diabetes. I don’t want it if I don’t have it now. I want to be there for Jacklynn,

And,

I want more children.

Yes, I said it.

Jamie and I would love more babies.

I do.

But, only if God sends them. We will not use any interventions. I am content with my four that I have. So, intervention is not needed.

Now, if God deems us to have more, I will gladly, GLADLY have more precious arrows.

So back to dumping… It takes forever to back up to DVD’s. I need a new external and plan on grabbing one or two here in the next week or so.

I am not dumping this blog, in fact, I am trying to resurrect the thing. I have about 3-6 reviews coming up. I have a lot of cleaning to do on it. It might move to its own domain.
Like I said, I am not dumping this old friend.

 

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Boring Title

For a boring post, I want to try to blog. I miss writing whatever my thought is that came to mind.

Even if it was a bit controversial

or even a bit boring like this post.

I am not the smartest brain around, so my posts tend to be a bit more simple.

Not a lot goes on in my life. I home school my children, I clean my home, and I go to church and study my bible.

Kinda boring right?

I told you so.

And you know what,

It is ok to have a boring life.

I like my life.

Great Idea’s

and by the time I get here, they are out of the head. Seriously.

Recently we went on a trip to Southern TN, it was fun!

However, since being home, life has taken over. All I have edited are a couple of pics.

This being my favorite.

I did not take my big camera, only my lil’ point and shoot.

This bridge was eons long.

I mean eons, and it squeaked, and moved, and it was a really deep ravine.

Did I say it was long, and noisy?

It was a long way down, enough so that when I did look down, I felt sick.

Jonah felt the same.

We both white knuckled it to the other side. At one point, my lovely friend Heather had to talk me through it.

We made it.

And this, was a sunset outside her door.

It was beautiful, I really should have brought the big camera.

Only it has a layer of dust on it.

Life

Somtimes life can really throw you a curve ball. One you do not quite expect, but it is there, and only there because you tried to forget about it.

Or you procrastinated and now it came back to bite you in the behind.

Then God shows you a bit of sunshine.

Even though, I fail as a wife and a mother. I fail as a sister in Christ. God still shows me how much he loves me.

My husband takes our hard hitting news with an ok, life goes on and we will be fine. While I sit there in tears apologizing.

I get an ” I love you mom” from the same son I just scolded in anger a few moments ago.

So even though I am scared, and I have no idea how we are going to weather this new development in our lives, God is still on the throne, and is still sending me a bit of sunshine. Our Lord heals before the sun goes down if we put our faith in Him. We by ourselves can not do a thing.

  Luke 4:40   Now when the sun was setting, all they that had any sick with divers diseases brought them unto him; and he laid his hands on every one of them, and healed them.

Even after the rain, the sun will shine again. God brings us that beacon for us.

Sun is a natural way to get some vitamin D. Without that essential vitamin, we feel

  • Muscle pain
  • Sudden loss of muscle strength
  • Constant bone pains
  • Low energy / Moodless

It can affect many area’s of our lives. Anyways,

We need the sun and the Son in our lives. I am so thankful to know that I have a home in heaven and that Jesus is there to hold my hand or even carry me.

One night a man had a dream. He dreamed
he was walking along the beach with the LORD.


Across the sky flashed scenes from his life.
For each scene he noticed two sets of
footprints in the sand: one belonging
to him, and the other to the LORD.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him,
he looked back at the footprints in the sand.


He noticed that many times along the path of
his life there was only one set of footprints.

He also noticed that it happened at the very
lowest and saddest times in his life.


This really bothered him and he
questioned the LORD about it:


“LORD, you said that once I decided to follow
you, you’d walk with me all the way.
But I have noticed that during the most
troublesome times in my life,
there is only one set of footprints.
I don’t understand why when
I needed you most you would leave me.”

The LORD replied:


“My son, my precious child,
I love you and I would never leave you.
During your times of trial and suffering,
when you see only one set of footprints,
it was then that I carried you.”

 written by Carolyn Joyce Carty

 

16 Rules – A Repost

I first posted 16 Rules  July of 2010. I was rereading through some posts and I loved this one. It is amazing how easy it is to stop doing something even when we know it is the right thing to do. Such as eating between meals. I so need to start that one again.

I hope you enjoy reading it for the first time, or rereading it like I did.

Susannah Wesley was the 25th child of twenty-five, and the mother of nineteen chil- dren, including John and Charles Wesley. Through much adversity, she dedicated her life to instilling a sense of Christian Destiny into each of her children. Her children went on to change the world.

Here are 16 rules she laid down in her home.

1. Eating between meals not allowed.

2. As children they are to be in bed by 8 p.m.

3. They are required to take medicine without complaining.

4. Subdue self-will in a child, and those working together with God to save the child’s soul.

5. To teach a child to pray as soon as he can speak.

6. Require all to be still during Family Worship.

7. Give them nothing that they cry for, and only that when asked for politely.

8. To prevent lying, punish no fault which is first confessed and repented of.

9. Never allow a sinful act to go unpunished.

10. Never punish a child twice for a single offense.

11. Comment and reward good behavior.

12. Any attempt to please, even if poorly performed, should be commended.

13. Preserve property rights, even in smallest matters.

14. Strictly observe all promises.

15. Require no daughter to work before she can read well.

16. Teach children to fear the rod.

excerpted from

http://www.the-mothers-heart.com/SusannaWesleyRules.pdf