Happy Birthday Mom

This year, as every year since she passed away in 2006, her birthday is the hardest time of the year for me. See, November 28th is was her birthday and she would have been 65 this year. She should be here celebrating with us. Her birthday is on her favorite holiday, Thanksgiving. She LOVES this holiday like no other. She loves turkey and dressing. Mashed potato’s and the fixings. My grandma usually baked her a Carrot cake. Especially, if it fell on her birthday. This year, it falls again on her birthday.

So, this year, we are eating all of Mom’s favorites. Right down to the cake.
I love you Mom!

 

Just Not Feeling It.

Ever feel like no matter what you do, you just cannot see the light at the end of the tunnel?

Or, around the bend is an old woman with a cast-iron pan waiting to smack you?

Or, that the bogeyman is really under your bed?

I am a pessimist for the most part. The glass is half-empty and not half-full. If something does not go right, I tend to panic. If I forget something, I about lose control. That is me, and somehow, someway, my husband still loves me. Not sure why yet, But, I figure after 12 years of chaos, he must be in it for the long haul. For which I am glad.

I need to step up my game, and I have begun to do that. I am doing a review for this devotional. Excited about it, and I think it is very doable.  It is called Putting on the Spirit by Katie Hornor. It is coming out soon in December. So, I won’t go into too much more detail. Hate to give away the review already. But, it is good. I have enjoyed it immensely.  It is helping me with my spiritual life. 

 

I am just not feeling things. But, I do know that God is still on the throne. He is still in charge. He is still calling the shots. He is still in the process of saving souls. I know how the book ends. So even when I am not feeling it, I still feel his arms around me. 

That is all I need.